i'm tangled and broken. this is where it falls apart and everything is going to fucking crash on me. i'm finding it so hard, but i'll go on.

so it's finals season for me again...which is super fun seeing as it's been a good two days since my last test. regardless, i had a test last night, and i have a test tonight...and on top of all that, murphy and his mother fucking law have struck. yea, what better time to give me an assload of deadline-oriented work, than right now huh? way to go, mr. employer!

so yea, i'm going fucking insane over here trying to adequately study for my test, and finish all the work i have by their deadlines. i am not a happy camper.

not to mention i fucking hurt like no other. i know i'm an idiot with the things i do to myself..but i did it to myself so i'm not going to bitch about it...outside of uhmm..well? this.

and i got family shtuff that's making my ucler double bubble toil and trouble...

so i'm stealing a bloggy blog idea...why? cause i'm that fucking lame. the idea comes from jenny who used songs to convey life lessons. i'm a music whore..so, i'm stealing it...and i hope she doesn't mind.

30 life lessons brought to you by the lyrical word.

1. over it has taught me that the truth is i know from the start

2. stone sour made me realize that no one needs to bother.

3. butterfly boucher taught me that there is something exciting about finding everything you'll ever need sitting in the seat next to you.

4. eve six showed me that i want to ditch the logical.

5. reliant k taught me that i've been housing all this doubt and insecurity.

6. 4 none blondes got me to step back and ask "what's going on?"

7. no doubt taught me that love is like a punishment, but a real love survives and has a rock steady vibe.

8. the beastie boys taught me that you've got to fight for your right to party, and that there is no sleep 'til brooklyn...

9. ani difranco taught me there will be four lips kissing, and none of them will be mine

10. eagle eye cherry taught me to save tonight...tomorrow you'll be gone.

11. goldfrapp taught me that i want someone to fight me, try me, and kiss me like they like me.

12. alien ant farm taught me that i should try not to be so courageous.

13. mos def told me to shine a light on the world.

14. britney spears taught me that boys...sometimes a girl just needs one.

15. blur taught me to WOOO HOOO!

16. the beatles taught me that all you need is love...and that you get by with a little help from your friends.

17. mariah carey showed me that a heartbreaker got the best of me.

18. marilyn manson taught me to hate every mother fucker that's in my way.

19. ween made me realize that when he lies it's time to say bye bye bye, and when he's true then only time will tell, it may just even ring wedding bells.

20. geggy tah reminded me to say "thank you" to whoever you are.

21. annie lennox showed me what it feels like to keep on walking on broken glass

22. a perfect circle let me know it's diffucult not to feel a little disappointed and passed over.

23. the smashing pumpkins showed me how to disarm you with a smile.

24. avril lavigne taught me to shrug and say "so much for my happy ending."

25. chicane taught me there's nothing i can say, they'll still just turn their back and walk away.

26. whitetown taught me that i could never be your woman.

27. soundgarden taught me it's all just a burden in my hand.

28. nine inch nails taught me that you'll be here, as long as it works for you....and that i want to feel you from the inside.

29. stone temple pilots told me not to cut out my paper heart, that i'm not dead..and i'm not for sale.

30. beck showed me where it's at....two turntables and a microphone.

oh..and here's me looking like absolute tired asscrack...right before my testy-test. stunning ain't i? riiiiight. this whole "sleep is for the weak" creed thing i live by...yea, i think it's time to just admit i'm fucking weak right now.

happy hnt y'all.

i'm going to go dose myself up with pain pills, and pray to god that percocet and accounting mingle well together.