it's the reason why i'm down, i've been beaten and pushed around..hit the ceiling without a sound...and there's just no reason why i'm here....

the last post was long as alllll fuckin hell...so, for the purpose of sanity (yours and mine)...keep this relatively short, and not so sweet....i mean, this is me afterall....

1. thank you big poppa for the flowers! seriously, made my shitty day a wee bit brighter :) also, thank you to the chosen-jew (you know who you are...and you have today off, you go!), for the lil text...also made me smile :)

2. i don't mean to be one of those people with blanket stereotypes, or is (more) of a hater or anything....but seriously, it is just genetic that asians can't fucking drive for shit?!! i mean, i really never experienced the phenomenon that is asian drivers prior to moving to california...and i thought it was a california thing, much like the absolutely annoying accent that is specific to asians in california (seriously, i'm not joking. they have their own little accent, and it's the most annoying thing ever). however, cleveland has it's fair share of asians (not like new york didn't..but who drives in new york?)...and....same shitty driving...minus the obnoxious accent (thank god). so, it can't just be a cali thing....it has to be something so inherent to their genetic code that it exists in asia, in cali, in ohio....just about everywhere those lil bastards can drive. god help us all.

3. thanks to everyone who sent me lil e-cards. appreciated it. murph, your e-card sucked, but i still heart your bald irish ass.

4. cleveland cops are fuckin awesome. i'm not talking suburb, i'm talking the cops of cleveland proper. they are the shining example of abusing the power inherent to their job, and i have no fucking qualms about it. nothing says "awesome" like cops who could give to fucks about you going 60mph in a 25mph zone, because you're white and female. nothing says "rock on" like cops who turn their lights on just so they can skip that bastard red light, and go onto their merry way--which happened to be starbucks (dont think i didn't see you!). and nothing says "balls to the walls extreme" like you guys apprehending people in the park across the street from my apartment, so i can watch the whole thing. thanks guys!

5. anybody else pissed off that gwen stefani is releasing every shitty ass song on her solo-album, and none of the ones that are actually worthwhile (which would be all of two?) gwenny! what are you doing?!!

6. hip hop officially blows. i thought "laffy taffy" was the low point, but leave it to nelly and his retarded 3-bandaged-cheek to fuck it up more. "grillz" or whatever the fuck the song is called is absolute shit. if you like it, you should be shot. if you don't think it's horrible, you should be sterlized. if you think it's funny and making fun of the whole million-dolla-teeth phase rappers have/went through, nice try....the song still sucks something aweful. it's the beggining of the end for commercial hip-hop....for shame.

7. lucky me, i lost more weight. except, now my fav brown comfty pants seriously look like parachute pants on me. not like i care...i still wear them everywhere.

8. nothing cracks me up more than people who have never seen me with adequate time or effort put into my appearance. most of the time, i don't even bother putting make-up on or doing my hair for class...and i'm usually wearing the above mentioned parachute-esque pants and a sweatshirt. but today commercial law was cancelled (god i love you professor buckley!), so, on top of going to the gym this morning..i had about an extra 3 hours of nothing to do but chit chat with some people online....so, i put on some make-up...put on a cute sweater and a skirt....and even left my hair down. i walk into my advanced intellectual propertly law seminar...and even the professor was like "wow, you look very different.....you look nice!". least i get done up-well, huh?

9. i just ate a half pint of ben & jerry's" everything but the..." ice cream...guess those brown pants will fit like they used to tomorrow

10. i think i've gone nocturnal. i mean, my lil addiction to sleeping pills aside (is it really addiction if you're an insomniac?).....i have no problem sleeping during the day. i'm the queen of waking up on saturday morning at about 8am after going to bed at about 4am....and then passing out from 1pm-4pm...and being up all night. i have no urge to sleep at all at night (absent the ambien y'all), but come late morning, early afternoon..i want nothing more than to crawl into bed and just sleep my life away. figures.