it's a mother fucker....being here without you...staring at the walls just me again...and i won't ever be the same....and you don't ever be the same.

while conversing with jake about his latest tragic date, he explicated that the psycho hose beast of a woman he was taking out, over dinner, flat out asked him to list about ten things he finds insanely obnoxious about himself.

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right. well, that seemed to be the end of her possibilities with one of new york's hottest bachelors (seriously ladies, jake=hot...if he wasn't like a brother to me i'd so pounce him)...however...while a first date faux pas, it's a good blogging idea...

thus! i present to you! the ten things i find most obnoxious about myself. HOLLA!

1. my laugh. it's loud, it's frequent, it's just not good.

2. i....how to put this.....well, no way to really sugar coat or make it less silly....i giggle during sex. yes! that's right. i don't full on laugh my ass off...but occassionally something funny happens, some weird noise occurs....and those are justified little giggles. but sometimes? i just randomly giggle....not sure if that's more weird than...individious..but i assume to the person doing the porking, it's pretty annoying when the porkee laughs!

3. i'm indecisive. and i don't care how fuckin' nice you are, indecisive people are fuckin obnoxious and warrant the response of "FUCKIN DECIDE" while holding back every ounce of will you have to punch the shit out of them.

4. i sing in the shower. really. really. loud. so loud, the guy upstairs has commented on it to me in the elevator.

5. i am one of *those* people...that's right! i squeeze the tooth paste tube from the middle, not the end!

6. i have a mouth that could make a sailor/truck driver say "holy shit, she swears a lot".....and that's just fuckin obnoxious.

7. i have no qualms about making fun of people, to their face....whatever qualm i may have is greatly lessened by the fact i may not know them...

8. at most given times of the day....i am chewing gum. that said, at most times of the day i'm either blowing bubbles or snapping my gum..loudly.

9. i have a new york accent (on some words...and it's full-on when i'm tired/drunk/conversing with my parents/in ny/talking to any of my friends there or hanging out with them.....) 'nuff said.

10. i use colors in my blog..and according to the asshole fondly referred to as E, or eazydoesit, that's fuckin obnoxious as all fuckin' hell

so it kind of begs the question? what do you find obnoxious about yourself?!

(and i swear....i'll have more substantive posts for the rest of the week)

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on friday night..around 4am..i got the urge to just talk shit through...and for some reason i got inspired to do it via blogger...mostly because..who the fuck is up at 4am that isn't drunk and worth talking to? yea..s'what i thought.

so i talked. and i figured it was a bit long..and i was apprehensive about posting it on my main blog..so i typed it out on the other blog....but, then i kind of figured....i really haven't censored much of myself on this blog to begin with..who the fuck cares? it's long..it makes nose sense...but i did it via this medium for a reason...so ummmmm enjoy?

........OH! and before i forget! GO STEELERS!!!