people concertina to my private latern moves, with the sense all inclusive, in the theater of triggered memories, it's all moments, until i leave one.

for the life of me....

and maybe this is just me....but...

i can't figure out why the fuck the door to the trash chute has a lock to begin with...let alone why the fucking door is always locked....

i understand that waste disposal is a privilege...

.....okay i don't.....throwing out your garbage is one of those requisite things. it goes hand and hand with--doing dishes, cleaning, and making sure your apartment, overall, doesn't smell like staten island on an extremely hot day...

so why lock up the source of exit?

and yes, i realize that this little bitchfest of mine is easily alleviated by carrying my keys with me at all times i want to throw out my garbage.....but that's kind of obnoxious, not to mention annoying....and above all else..with my goddamn luck my key's would somehow end up down the chute.

...and it really doesn't change the fact that it's the stupidest thing i've ever seen...a lock on a garbage chute? i mean honestly now!

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in other fantastic news...if you're reading this after 12pm on thursday the 15th (that would be eastern standard time dzer! so no rubbing it in that we're behind)....HOLLA! i am done with my fall semester law school exams, and halfway done with my second year...which means i'm 1/4 of the way done with my entire graduate school education....if you exclude the possibility of an LLM in tax law and assume that i actually get my ass in gear and start taking my masters classes for accounting........hmmm....

right! in any event...this means one thing: bring on the alcohol! and i'm rather excited...and it's exceedingly strange...about my post final binge drinking festivities partner. i won't say why, i wont' say who, i won't say where...or how....but i have this feeling that it will, at the least, be insanely entertaining...and i haven't had a fun night out in a long long time....

which really doesn't bring me to my next point...but i'll go there anyway: the short sighted nature of select individuals. for once, i'll have tact...and not name names....but in light of everything recently, and maybe it's the fact i've kind of aquired a bit of self worth since the summer, i don't understand how people can be so....

self absorbed.

i'm not talking vanity, i'm not talking about the fact you blog (like all of us....and admit it, blogging is one narcissitic act....it presupposes a--you have something worthwhile to talk about that generally revolves around you, and b--someone gives enough of a shit to read it. nothing wrong with it though, if anything it's putting yourself out there more so than any other medium could ever allow...besides, i love all y'all and i'm glad i met all y'all..but i'll save the sappy shit for my pre-3 week absence post...but i mean no offense about the blogging..seriously!)...or being self protective and thinking of yourself before others.....

all those things are inherent to human nature (okay..maybe not blogging per se...but the expression of the self is definately human nature)...

i'm talking about the type of self absorbtion that you don't see past...yourself. what implications shit carries with regard to you is all that matters, and fuck everyone in the process...you are the end all be all.

now i understand that, in the end, all we have is the self....but at some point you kind of have to open your eyes to reality and realize that by only thinking of you, you are all you're going to have.....

eventually,they'll have to look past the end of their nose and actually put their little toes in the wonderful oblivioun that is awaiting them....

the wonderful uncertainty that is ....desideratum.

alright..this is making no sense huh? never blog after reading 1021 pages of copyright, patent, and trademark law and outlining it...it leads to incoherence...

leave it at this: if someone can't remember anything about you...and makes no effort to know anything about you...is it safe to assume they just don't give a shit about you?

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oh! and happy HNT Y'all!

how creepy is that?!! heh! i'm watchign you!!!