some trip over roots and say fuck it i'm sunk....

lets start out by saying: kanye west is a fucking idiot, which makes me sad because...well, i like his music. o-well, guess i'll feel less guilty as a illegally download his music.....uch....such a fuckin tard.

next......new eclipse commercial with the jodaiko...rocks. new eclipse as a car? fuckin ewww!

lastly: jeremy piven. dear god i fucking want him.

anyway...i seem to have boycotted a "friend" of mine. why? mostly because he annoyed the shit out of me one night to the point of me going "wow, so not worth it"...and i feel kind of guilty. you see, he always insinuated that i never wanted to have anything to do with him....instead of realizing that i can't really go out during the week, and therefore my 1.5 day weekend kind of fills up quickly. it started to get old really quick. everyday he'd ask to hang out, and everyday i'd decline. not because i necessarily had shit to do, but mostly because there was NOTHING to do. this is ohio, remember?! this is also me. i dont like to go out all the time, plus, as stated, as soon as the school year started i was limited to 2.5 days a week (technically 1.5, seeing as wednesday night i always go to johnny malloy's with zee crew).. of going out. moreover everytime i would be on his side of town..which mostly consisted of grocery shopping and costco mind you...i was ignoring him and wanted nothing to do with him if i didn't call to hang out with him. i mean honestly, after two weeks of knowing someone...that's a bit much. so, after one fine conversation where he basically tried to make me feel like shit for not jumping at every opportunity to be around him.....my little inner voice said "fuck this. if i wanted him to be my boyfriend he'd be it....and god knows i don't want that. i don't need to deal with constantly being told i'm not putting enough effort into something that really isn't worth it to me....so fuck him"...and thus, i've stopped talking to him.......and now, almost a month later.....i feel kind of bad. not because i kinda just disappeared....he also stopped trying to talk to me.....but mostly because he was a nice guy....so i ask you.....was this mean of me? my gauge of meanness is a bit off, this is me after all....

in other news, the prospects of my winter break are upon me....and aside from snowboarding from the 3-8th, nothing is planned, and, much to my fucking amazement, my parents have kind of left it up to me.........so that leaves the 22nd-january 3rd, and january 8-15...for me to do what i want......any suggestions?!! anyone want to do something?!

alright..i can't do it.....i wasn't going to say anything about the bar i went to on saturday night, but dear fucking god i can't keep my mouth shut.....uch...but i have to. fuck! alright! for now, i will..but if i ever end up back there, it's fuckin on!....and just to get a fix: there was a girl there that looked like a wannabe donatella versace with the thinnest eyebrows and the nastiest nails i have ever seen. she was exactly clear shoes away from slutting herself out on a pole, but she substitute that pole with a pool stick she carried between her legs throughout the night while playing pool. she had the fattest most collagened lips i've ever seen, and she was so tan, she glowed UV light. call me catty, call me critical, bitch cracked me up! wow, i feel better...