Tuesday, October 25, 2005

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i'm 23 years old....

tomorrow i have my third colposcopy procedure done....

i somehow think that all my inconclusive lab results...these biopsies.....it all just translate into the notion that i'll never be able to have kids....

that notion, alone, is why, as some of you noticed, i haven't been myself lately.

that notion, alone, rips my heart out.

16 comments:

Anonymous said...

my thoughts are with you...

oldman71 said...

Good luck, Elle. God is with you.

DZER said...

hey there darlin'. All I can say is that I wish you all the best and will offer what prayers I can. *big guammiebear hugs*

Anonymous said...

I WANT TO FUCK YOU. BUT HOW CAN I? TELL ME THE WAY. I LOVE YOUR BIG BOOBS AND BIG ASSES.

sassinak said...

elle the only thing i know for sure is not to cross a bridge until you're standing on it.

good luck and i hope that you're fine but know that if you're not you will find something to do with all of that love.

of course nothing we can say will make you feel better until you actually *know*

*huggs*

Timmy said...

...hope everything turns out okay. Thoughts and prayers...

Everything Nice said...

Elle- Im really sorry to hear about this. If you want to borrow my kids you can.

Just let me know how to fill out the buddy pass papers for their flight there...

further, im pullin' for ya... and I can only hope that it's returned since it seems my surgical necessities have re-surfaced as well.

here's to anesthetic! cheers!

*hugs*

Johnny said...

that sucks man.

btw im back. not that anyone noticed.

anyways. i was trapped on a desert island having to press this execute button every 108 minutes but then these fucktards came and jammed the whole thing up.

Johnny said...

um... scuse me...

wtf did theresa's blog go?

"Jet" said...

Elle-- I totally "feel" your pain! You wanna talk... You know where to find me!!

Love ya!!

XXOO,
JTL

sassinak said...

damm T I miss her a lot.

*huggs* elle

Anonymous said...

You tough....

....and no matter what, I love ya girl!!!!

Johnny said...

oh ellen, i have some words of advice from my old football coach... he said "Johnny. SUCK IT UP YOU LOSER!!!"

seriously, u can have mine. theyll probably even suck on your big ole teats and believe me, those jugs will churn out some 2% with the right amount of infantile suckage.

not to mention kids are mostly about what their parents teach them, picking up their parents traits and all that other parenty stuff. im pretty sure u'd make a great mommy anyways.

that said, sux and im sorry this happened to you.

i'll send dirty pron to make u feel better. Lp

da buttah said...

i'm fine kids.

just my own assumptions..nothing veritble.

thanks for your kind words :)

Anonymous said...

I have to have a colposcopy done november 1 and I'm freakin out! I've never had one before and my doctor is saying that I might have cancer even though Im only in my 20's. If you don't mind me asking how painful is it??

Steppin' On Toes said...

L, I feel for ya, but I also know you'll pull through as you always have....people obviously need you chicka. And I'd like to see ya when you get your ass down to Cali again.