Sunday, August 07, 2005

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it's always painful when you remember how much you love someone. not because of the fact you do love them, but because of how much it hurts inside when something bad happens to them. i'm not talking about being "in love", i'm talking about unadulterated love. the love that rips away at your soul...the love that surfaces in tears and a sick feeling in your stomach...not when you think about your life without them, but when you think of anything remotely bad happening to them and wishing it had happened to you instead. that is the love i have for my family, and that is the love i was rudely reminded of this weekend.


83 comments:

da buttah said...

my brother.

Didi Roby said...

I feel you on that "Unadulterated love" thing...man do I feel you.

sassinak said...

me too about my sister.

dare we ask why rudely reminded?

Daniel said...

Chin up, dude.

da buttah said...

yea yea everything is fine.

gary got "jumped" on friday, doesn't remember anything...just remembers waking up in a ct scanner. but he's fine, so all is well.

Johnny said...

what if you dont have a soul?

Johnny said...

btw, seriously, hope your brother is ok and all that shit. criminals need a beatdown. i mean, take the money, its not cool to hurt people tho.

da buttah said...

that's the thing.

no one took his money, his wallet, his keys..nothing. all there, down to the last penny.

Anonymous said...

look i'm all for violence, but only when someone deserves it. glad to hear your bro is ok. i hope the cowards that did it get theirs.

mal said...

sorry about your brother, I am the same way about my brothers

da buttah said...

*vomits a little in her mouth to the "you are perfect for each other comment"*

honestly, i think i'm more affected than it by him...just felt like i was going to puke everywhere when he told me. no one knows who did it, he doesn't even remember getting into the cab to go home that night, let alone passing out in the lobby and being taken to the ER by an ambulance.

people blow.

DZER said...

sorry to hear that your weekend was traumatic.

And yes, in the main, in general, people do suck. big time.

Johnny said...

y'all dont look like transplanted israelites.

i mean, isnt everyone supposed to look like natalie portman?!

i feel i've been decieved by hollywood and the media. CLASS ACTION SUIT!!!

da buttah said...

dude..i'm a russian yud. and no....i don't even want to look like natalie portman


so how y'all doin?!

Shanshu said...

Whoa...he got jumped? Damn, that's scary. Where does he live? That is insanity, to me.

Here in Kansas...you don't get jumped, unless you stole somebody's horse. Then it's ON.

Johnny said...

good, except my mortgage banker is an fuckin hemmroid.

so did you go on a date with a hometool this weekend? we want to hear about it.

da buttah said...

Well, bring on the influx of random comments Jersey..i gotta figure out how to use the litter-robot for the next half hour.

hmmm Johnny..wha?

da buttah said...

PETER JENNINGS IS DEAD?!!!

woah.

da buttah said...

yea...i know. they kept it so hush hush though.

seems kinda sudden. though with ABC and advertisers...can understand why

da buttah said...

cleveland is good....lazy as fuck so uhh haven't unpacked yet..oops

da buttah said...

sofie had NO luggage..except for her crate

i unapacked one bag..have one big one left...but i want to re-organize my closet..yesterday i re-organized my guest closet and set that all up..got my shoes and purses squared away

right now...setting up the awesome new litter box for my kitty so i can be done with the study.

da buttah said...

the cockroach..i have no idea. i'm to scared to open the bathroom door and find out!

da buttah said...

nope. i will make some guy come get the bitch out.

for now..guest shower man.

Jabbertrack said...

or feed it radioactive cheerios and give it super powers, at that point it will have larger aspirations than to keep you out of your bathroom and will probably want to conquer the world.

da buttah said...

yea. radioactive cockroaches...uhhh

*runs*

da buttah said...

oh mah god
*pukes up her diet cherry vanilla dr pepper*

breakfast of champoins!

Jabbertrack said...

DUDE, find it and get it drunk!

da buttah said...

drunk dead cockroach?

da buttah said...

indie rock band.

ex boyfriend doesn't get creative names. he's just asshole

da buttah said...

stop bitching jersey

and root for the yanks!

Jabbertrack said...

they need all they help they can get this year

da buttah said...

fechk you!

da buttah said...

seriously. rain...is cooling

da buttah said...

and i'm never eating mac and cheese again. dear god.

da buttah said...

dear god. i'm going to spew for reals ahha

white_devil said...

Easy with the anti-yankees chanting...bitches.

da buttah said...

white! i'm a yankee fan punkass!

da buttah said...

eh it's the only food i had..other than tuna....

and i hate tuna

da buttah said...

dude...you so need a litter robot.

the thing is awesome. now i just have to find lulu and shove her into it.

Jabbertrack said...

Not a cockroach

da buttah said...

naw..you control when it runs dude

white_devil said...

correction...my bad...

da buttah said...

uhhh next semester is

copyrights and trademarks, con law, legal drafting, tax law, and corporations. WOOT!

damn. why do grover and co keep picking up ?

murph. i killed her. i can't stand the competition.

Jabbertrack said...

lol danica's blog almost looks like it's set up by some guy just to fuck with guy bloggers

da buttah said...

naw...i didn't have it jersey...my family was ghetto

da buttah said...

the thing rocks!
i never have to clean her litter box again!

da buttah said...

i had that thing with the lever....and you pull it..and it goes "The cow goes moo"

oh that rocked

da buttah said...

don't hate on the wheel-o-aminimals man!

da buttah said...

jersy...come over for some cake i made

dude: scooby doo! *does dance move*

da buttah said...

can i interest you in some blazing hot trail mix?

da buttah said...

dude i so wish


hey....is it normal to be deathly afraid of sharks?!

da buttah said...

don't mind bee's

yellow jackets i run like a black man from the fuzz though

da buttah said...

yea...but i've never been stung by a bee

and they generally leave me alone

hornets/yellow jackets are fuckers though

Anonymous said...

i'm scared of clowns

da buttah said...

high five on that one shane

Anonymous said...

i think i'm gonna go to random blogs & only post "i'm scared of clowns" in their comment section. then see what kinda response if any i get. god i'm fucking bored.

da buttah said...

murph. you're flaming

da buttah said...

i repeat: flaming

Jabbertrack said...

so apperantly someone (one of 2 people) leaked my blog to other people at work

word is that I am rude and stuck up, lets see if I get fired shal we

Jabbertrack said...

ya so I just spent the last half hour removing posts that hint that I'm anything but sunshine lollipos and rainbows at work, removing the picture from my profile, and any hints as to where I might live or work

da buttah said...

you're rude?

never would have thunk it Jabberstud

stuck up..well you are from cali :p

Anonymous said...

i've always been afraid of that. i'm still contemplating whether or not to remove the picture of me & my buddy posing w/ a concrete lawn negro.

da buttah said...

lawn negro haha
the new gnome

*hands jersey a tissue*

Anonymous said...

it is what it is. hell buttah, you saw the pic.

da buttah said...

it's hilarious shane!

Anonymous said...

i personally like the one of PBC reading "the south was right" to a concrete negro.

Steppin' On Toes said...

I feel ya both on the love and the feeling of have someone you love jumped. Has happened and it fuckin blows esp. because you just wish you were there to stop it or that you coulda taken the pain instead. Love to ya L. Keep it up.

Anonymous said...

fuck you anonymous for that shameless plug. we at www.theweddingparty05.blogspot.com would never do something so lame! you dick!

da buttah said...

nice shane..you show them how to shamelessly plug :)

Jabbertrack said...

i was supremely pissed for a while, and now I'm sorta bummed I deleted all that shit off my blog

oh well, going to keep on truckin

btw your page has music playing...

da buttah said...

jabberstud....it's a video

wait..does this mean you are done blogging?!

white_devil said...

thats a big 10-4 negative on the beating from the chi-sox...but at least the sorry orioles cant lose tonight...off day..bitches.

Jabbertrack said...

not done blogging, maybe less about work though

for some reason I can't see the video and can only hear the audio~

white_devil said...

Murph...what kind of bats do you use for ball?

Jabbertrack said...

I used to use a 38 ounce 'ball buster' ... 34 inch

if you could get it around... it's like swinging an illegal bat, but it's pretty difficult to swing fast... this was before all the new bats that are basically bullshit

I hate watching guys with no talent cramming stuff over the fence just to get a single. I like the leagues that allow 1 fence ball per game then the rest are outs.

white_devil said...

I'm a Miken man myself...all my teams for some reason are sponsored by Mizuno..but I hate their shit....so I'm the outkast...

Anonymous said...

do you ever come across those assholes that microwave the fucking balls?

white_devil said...

Yes sir...its either that or people that freeze them..We had a guy this weekend for a USSSA tourney where you can dance on the mound...well..he was dancing around but couldnt field worth a shit when it came back up the middle at him.

Anonymous said...

that's one of the main reasons you will NEVER see me on the mound.

BTW I play in one league where they allow unlimited HRs. That night is just a rec. league but still, those games fucking go on forever.

white_devil said...

Most the standards I play in are like 4 per game..which is cool..I dont hit them so I dont care..I bat like second or leadoff..so I cant pull the willy mays hays and hit solo shots or i will bring beer...hits bitches.

white_devil said...

oh yea..why is gwen s. dancing around my screen?...puke.

Anonymous said...

ok buttah i hope u dont mind the comments here...
jabguy.. jsut post stupid boring stuff for about 3 weeks.. then they will not be so interested anymore...

stop the BB talk... damn...

buttah.. love u and ur friends ping pong style banter... as well as the blog.. between u and ar u serious .. i never get a damn thing done .. (gotta check out others blogs or sleep?) *sigh*

anyway .. thanks for those of us that dont hve a blog so they cant post! n.. we do enjoy the link up! ;)

KV said...

Pretty lame to jump someone. I hope your brother is doing better now!