it hurts all the time when you don't return my calls and you haven't got the time remember how it was. it's like drinking poisen and eating glass.

this is rather old and it stems from when the whole debacle last may with my father [which, knock on wood has turned out to be nothing more than a speed bump thus far] but i think it's encompasses the holiday spirit to an unprecedented tee.

A few confessions from my beating heart:

I have no fucking clue who Nick and Jessica are. I see them on the cover of People and US magazines constantly when i'm buying dog buscuits or kitty litter. I often ask the checkers at the grocery store, and they never know who Nick and Jessica are either. Who are they? Will it change my life if I know who they are and why they broke up? Why are they so important? Honestly, I don't know who Lindsay Lohan is either, and even more honestly-I don't care at all about Tom Cruise's baby or to-be wife. If this is what it meanst o be no longer young, it's not so bad.

Next Confession:

I am a jew, and every single one of my ancestors was Jewish. It doesn't bother me even a little bit when people call those beauitful lit-up bejeweled trees Christmas trees. I don't feel threatened. I don't feel discriminated against. That's what they are: Christmas trees. It doesn't bother me a bit when people say "Merry Christmas" to me. I don't think they are slighting me or getting ready to put me in a ghetto. In fact I kind of like it--it shows that we are all brothers and sisters celebrating a happy time of year. It doesn't bother me at all that there's a manger scene at key intersections. If people want a creche, it's just as fine with me as the Menorah a few yards away is.

I don't like getting pushed around for being a Jew, and I don't think Christians like getting pushed around for being Christians. I think people who believe in G-d are sick and tired of getting pushed around, period. I have no idea where the concept came from that America is an explicitly athiest country--I can't find it in the Constitution, and I don't like it being shoved down my throat. Or maybe I can put it another way: Where did the idea come from that we should worship Nick and Jessica and we aren't allowed to worship G-d as we, personally, understand him? I guess that's a sign that I'm getting old too.

But, there are a lot of us wondering where Nick and Jessica came from and where the America we knew and loved went to. In light of many jokes we send to one another for a laugh, this is a little different--this is not intended to be a joke; it's not funny--this is intended to get you thinking.

Billy Graham's daughter was interviewed on the Earl Show and Jane Clayson asked her, "How could G-d let something like this happen?" (regarding Katrina). She said: I believ G-d is deeply saddened by this just as we are, but for years we've been telling G-d to get out of our schools, to get out of our government, and to get out of our lives. And, being the gentleman He is, I believe He has calmly backed out. How can we expect G-d to give us His blessing and His protection if we demand that he leave us alone?"

I think it started when Madeleine Murray O'Hare (she was murdered and her body was recently found) was complaining she did not want prayer in our schools and we said "Ok". Then someone said you better not read the Bible in school--the bible says "Thou shalt not kill, thou shalt not steal, and love your neighbor as yourself."--and we said "Ok." Then Dr. Benjamin Spock said we shouldn't spank our children when they misbehave because thier little personalities would be warped and we might damage their self esteem (Dr. Spock's son comitted suicide, by the way, without the hazard of a warped personality). We said an expert should know what he's talking about, and said "Ok."

Now we're asking ourselves why our children have no conscience, why they don't know right from wrong, and why it doesn't bother them to kill strangers, classmates, or themselves. Probably, if we think long and hard enough we can figure it out--I think it has a great deal to do with "We Reap What We Sow."

Funny how simple it is for people to trash G-d and then wonder why the world's going to hell.

Funny how we believe what the newspapers say, but question what the fundamentals behind what the bible says.

Funny how we can send jokes through e-mail and they spread like wildfire, but when you start sending messages regarding the Lord, people think twice about sharing.

Funny how lewd, crude, vulgar, and obsence articles pass freely through cyberspace, but public discussion of G-d is surpressed in the school and workplace.

Are you laughing?

Funny how if you decide to share this message, you won't send it to many on your address list because you're not sure what they believe, or what they will think of you for sending it.

Funny how can be more worried about what other people think of us than what G-d, the only one who effectively matters, thinks of us.

merry christmas to everyone =0)