ask me why i try to find strength in the people who never thought about a different way of life. i wouldn't know what to say-it doesn't seem that easy

so i've felt pretty assy since saturday night...like constantly nauseated, weak as shit, fatigued...and of course during the day all i want to do is curl up into a ball and sleep but i don't really have the time to do that. so...i rush through everything so i can be in bed at a reasonable hour....like before 3am...and of course, as my weary little head hits the pillows my eyelids, which previously felt like five tons of bullshit everytime i tried to open them, have decided to vacation in my fucking head. yup. i'm wide awake. so on top of feeling like shit, i haven't slept for shit this entire week..and that's saying a lot since a good nights sleep to me is about three continuous hours. and why have i felt like shit? ohhhh ye mighty ovaries! i passed week long migraine and went straight to collecting nausea, muscle aches, and fatigue...YAY!! of course, working out probably didn't help the fatigue...but whatever. i'd rather have a migraine than feel like i'm going to faint intermittently throughout the day. friday night i anticipate a hot and steamy date with my ambien pill. how's that for excitement?

and if things look like shit on the template front...sorry, umm..well..again. i'll work on it while i wait for the ambien to sweep me off my feet....so telling me about any problems would fucking ROCK like no other. and if anything the new template has made me realize how fucking verbose i am...so, i'll try to cut back on how much i blabber..promise!

anyway, onto requisite bullshit fluff for this lovely thursday:

i understand we are living in a material world and everyone is a material mother fucker. i even understand that electronics are the pinnacle of materiality, and showing off how much random gear you have is up there with making sure everyone knows you're wearing some designer because the designers name is on every fucking square inch of your shirt/handbag/pants/sunglasses and in the most fucking obnoxious way possible (we've all seen those sunglasses with d&g in bright pink gems on the side..and don't get me started on louis vuitton purses and how ridiculous it is that every one of them has LV all ov erthem).

but, there's a point where showing off all your awesome electronics gets to be fucking retarded in a way that being a walking billboard for some designer will never be. while a walking billboard is pretty repulsive in its own right, wearing a shit ton of designer clothes isn't impractical (and no! i'm not just saying that because i'm a designer label whore because i wear the plainest clothing imaginable)...but walking around with a shitload of electronics is.

cue the douchebag of the week: he's walking with his ipod in one hand, his cell phone in the other hand, headphones in both ears, and a bluetooth ear piece in one ear. how he managed that, i have no idea..because i know my own bluetooth headset wouldn't stay put if i had something else in my ears, but that's besides the point! i understand it's awesome to be connected..but sometimes you have to compromise...and compromise, like variety, is a fucking awesome spice of life! it's either your headphones, or your bluetooth. it's either you listen to your ipod, or you talk on the phone...because apparently both are impossible. so, while onlookers are in awe of your mighty electronic selection, they--and by they i mean me-- also think you're an utter douchebag for sititng there with your headphones in and your ipod working while you try to talk on your phone via the bluetooth headset and keep saying "what? i can't hear you" at hight volumes while in an educational setting. hell, if i saw you walking down the street with that set-up you'd still be douchebag of the week. so props!! wear it loud! wear it proud!

alright, i know it's hnt...and i know i owe y'all some titties or something that's at least kind of sexual in nature...which is hard 'cause this is me here people...but, as i started out with..i feel like ass, and i also went to go get my snowboard "tuned"-up and i got some spanking new bindings...and just seeing my board in its awesome orange-maroon glory got me super stoked for winter! and what better way to get ready for winter than by wearing a beanie with teddy bear ears virtually all day?

bring on the fucking snow!! i'm so ready! and no! i'm not naked...i may be ready for winter but it's muggy as shit outside and i'm not about to trade in my tube tops for a sweatshirt...yet.