just need some time to myself...again....i need to bring back the old days.....when i was in control of my life....

i've been in a weird place as of sunday.

very weird place.

but, that's for me.

i have been thinking about a few things..and seeing as nip/tuck and tax law kind of got in the way of my allocated blogging time (yea...i'm a schedulizing whore...i schedule my days like a mad woman, and what's sad..is i stick to them insanely well...and yes, i set aside a half hour to blog, daily....and yes, i'm aware that makes me insanely ocd)....i'll just come right out and say them:

1. nothing is worse than being so awake inside....but not being able to talk.

2. it seems that we, as people, charge around at too vicious a pace and expect, it seems, to be assessed or used or summed up very quickly. it seems we spend most of our lives explicating what we say or think or feel, rather than embracing our uniqueness. the rush has made us divest ourselves. perhaps people should look deeply into the eyes of another....before daring to utter a word.

3. i want to meet somoene who will crash into me....physically, sexually, utterly, daily....and never apologize for it. never.